Unfortunately, a weed of discouragement is trying to take root this week: our adoption agency gave me the 'reality' that we may not travel until the 2nd or 3rd week in OCTOBER! Absolutely deflating news, especially since we've been thinking that we could celebrate "Gotcha Day" sometime in September! Our coordinator explained that China celebrates a 'Moon Festival' the first week of October, and the entire country stops to celebrate - adoptions included. So if we don't receive our TA in the next week or so, then those important provincial and consular appointments which require scheduling 1-2 weeks in advance, won't be available for us to finalize the paperwork until mid-October.
Needless to say, it's been a teary couple of days around the house, and I can't shake the dismal feeling of being powerless to bring my son home any sooner. I turned to the story of Hannah this morning, knowing that I would find both comfort and camaraderie from this amazing woman of faith. Like Hannah, I am now barren, my body unable to carry any precious life inside of it. So her cries to the LORD, though difficult, also comfort me, as I understand her desperate desire to have a child. And Hannah's prayer, so bold yet silent, encourages me to persist, persist, persist in seeking the LORD to bring our child home much sooner than predicted.
Will you help me pull this discouraging weed today? All we have to do is ask FATHER:
Most powerful Father God,
Your perfect WORD, Father, reminds me that if I simply ask, then it will be given; if I seek, then I will find; if I knock, then the door will open because You give good gifts to Your children. Please, Lord Jesus, since You are the absolute best at moving big stones out of the way, I am begging that You move the rock that stands in the way of our travel to bring Nicholas home much sooner than anyone could have ever predicted or planned. And Holy Spirit, I am asking that you to pull the weeds of discouragement from my heart and replace them with seeds of comfort and joyful anticipation on this journey to sweet Nicholas. Above all, Father, I remember that You are this world's Master Gardener, and You provide a season for everything in perfect time. I submit that in all things, it is really not my will nor timing, but YOURS that will be done.
In Jesus' most precious name I pray,
AMEN